With the Grace of a Woman

summer

2011-08-04T09:00:00.001-04:00

It's been an interesting summer. Full of fun memories, time spent with family and friends and change. Lots and lots of change. New job, new apartment, new roommate, new city, new friends, new norms. Did I mention that I don't deal with change very well?

I've got lots of pictures to share with you from this summer. For now, let's just take it one day at a time as I ease back into the blog world and find new inspiration to write.

I love you all.

xoxo, E

happy dances

2011-05-05T14:25:00.001-04:00

My parents come to visit me in 9 days.

I walk to *finally* receive my undergrad diploma in 10 days.

I move so much closer to my family, friends and sweet pup in 11 days.

< insert happy dance >

The work I have to do in that time is overwhelming.

Will probably be posting sparingly for the next two-ish weeks.

In the mean time, check out the fancy new dot com I purchased...

www.emaleighrust.com

{it's just my blog, minus the .blogspot part}

Fancy, that's how we live.

...and just because I think this is funny in an entirely nerd kind of way...

Happy Weekend-Eve, lovely readers!

quoteable monday

2011-05-02T15:40:00.000-04:00

Women are never stronger than when they arm themselves with their weakness.

{Marie de Vichy-Chamrond}

Letters to Voltaire

Banana/Mango Sunrise Smoothie

2011-04-29T10:00:00.004-04:00

Contrary to the opinion of many, breakfast is one of the most important and meals of the day. I know many who can't stand this meal... even one of my dearest best friends even says that it makes him nauseous for the rest of the day if he eats it. Anyone else like that?

It is quite the opposite for me. I need breakfast. I can skip any other meal of the day. Not breakfast. If I don't have some kind of breakfast food, even if it's just an apple... I am Miss Cranky Pants all day long. Breakfast kick-starts the metabolism after a night of rest and gives your body "fuel" to begin the day. Breakfast time is also my "me" time. I usually read the news or my book, contemplate the previous night's dreams and gather my morning thoughts. The apartment is normally silent and I often welcome opening the window to listen to whatever is going on outside. After 20 minutes, I feel awake and refreshed- ready to begin my day.

Considering my on-going love-affair with avocados, you can imagine the drool in my mouth when I came across this recipe at Sophie's darling blog, The Littlest Things.

Avocado Toast:

2 T lime juice
2 T extra virgin olive oil
Sea Salt
Ground Pepper
1 avocado peeled and quartered
4 slices of sourdough bread, toasted
Fresh cilantro leaves

In a small bowl, mix the lime juice and evoo together with a fork until well blended. Top the toasted bread with 1 quarter of the avocado and drizzle with lime juice/evoo mixture. Season with salt and freshly cracked pepper to taste, garnish with fresh cilantro leaves.

photo credit: The Littlest Things

The Mango/Banana Sunrise Smoothie compliments this filling, delicious and healthy breakfast perfectly. Seriously. Go the extra step and make this quick treat with your toast.

1/2 banana
1/2 cubed mango
1 cup orange juice
2 T yogurt

Combine all ingredients in a blender and blend until all chunks are gone.

photo credit: The Littlest Things

I altered the recipes just slightly to accommodate my health needs/preferences...

*I used whole wheat bread instead of sourdough bread because I didn't have anything else on hand

*I didn't have mango, so I substituted peaches that were canned in 100% juice. I rinsed them before blending and was actually a tasty substitute. Used about 1/2 can of the peaches and refrigerated the rest.

*To cut down on sugar, I always purchase Tropicana's Trop 50 orange juice with extra added calcium. It has no added sugar and more of stuff that's actually good for you.

*I use plain Greek yogurt because that's all I ever buy anymore

*For all the protein enthusiasts out there- you can add 1/2-1 scoop of vanilla protein powder for an extra morning boost (or mid-day snack).

Drooling yet?

Do share if you give this recipe a whirl!

Happy Weekend

(errrr... royal wedding day?),

Lovely Readers!

Monday Funday

2011-04-27T10:00:00.000-04:00

Monday night provided the opportunity to enjoy a beautiful evening with good friends here in Virginia. After grabbing an early dinner and drinks at my favorite local restaurant, we made a group decision to drive across town for a Central Virginia local favorite- Mr. Goodies Ice Cream. Anyone who is in the area knows how much of a staple this little tent is to the town.

Granted, I may or may not have chosen going to get ice cream over a run and volleyball on Monday night, but the way I look at it... I'm only in town for a few more weeks, so why not soak up every opportunity I get to spend time with these few amazing, loyal friends. I limited myself to a small chocolate cone and left off the sprinkles and gummy bears. I'm pretty sure I balanced out the unhealthiness of the ice cream cone with all the fresh Spring air I made sure to breathe in... or so I'm letting myself believe. ;)

'xcuse the jank hair- I thought I was just going to the gym, not taking pictures ;)

Sitting outside enjoying a chocolate cone with good company (that I may not see for a while after my move) on a warm-ish Spring evening... there are few things better and I wasn't about to pass it up.

I hope your Monday was just as beautiful, dear readers.

quoteable monday

2011-04-25T22:23:00.000-04:00

featured here and here

Happy Monday, loves!

celebrating family

2011-04-21T10:00:00.005-04:00

The only thing on my mind as of late is moving home. Home to celebrate, be with and make memories with my family.

Closer to my Daddy, who protects me from everything, even the sp*ders in my window.

Closer to my Mommy- bike rides, downtown walks, beach days, design days or even just enjoying lunch on a Summer day on the patio together.

Closer to my Sister- very much closer, as we will be living and making memories together that will truly last a lifetime.

Closer to the ferocious beast- so we can play fox more often.

Closer to my grandparents- for their lives are precious and days numbered.

Closer to my cousins, aunts and uncles- so I can join in on family gatherings more often.


me and and amazing man of character, my grandfather

"Being a family means you are a part of something very wonderful.

It means you are loved and will be loved for the rest of your life.

No matter what."

What are you celebrating this Spring?

a teaser to spark your curiosity...

2011-04-10T15:00:00.002-04:00

I've been working on a little project...

Still working on development, so more information about my "project" isn't available yet. It's going to be a little while before I am able to officially "launch" the site... I've been working on this project between working, finalizing details for my move, job hunting and homework, so it's taking a little longer than normal.

I'm so excited to reveal exactly what this project entails so I've got a teaser to spark your curiosity.

Thoughts?

picture perfect

2011-04-09T11:49:00.001-04:00

The spring and summer months are my absolute favorite time of the year. The budding plants, the warm weather, the birds chirping, the longer evenings, the smell of a cookout in the distance and children playing after school... Spring is so promising- so fresh- especially after the drab, cold winter months.

I am currently obsessed with the view outside of my window. There is the perfect budding Dogwood tree, a budding purple tree and a green bush that have all begun to bloom. I have found myself stopping almost daily to just take in what I see outside. Often times in the morning, I open the window, grab a cup of coffee and my computer and crawl back into bed to apply for jobs and/or work on design work... truly one of my MOST favorite things to do. Such a relaxing way to start off each morning. Granted, this isn't the "real" world, but it's something I am able to enjoy this season and will soak up every moment I can.

This is an iPhone photo of the view I see every day, non-edited. I wish I could bottle this up and keep everything about this forever.

What is your favorite season?

and ps: HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to the best parents in the world!
Thank you for always making things work.

the world

2011-04-08T15:00:00.002-04:00

These two mean the absolute world to me.

Brother

Sister

Sibling relationships - and 80 percent of Americans have at least one - outlast marriages, survive the death of parents, resurface after quarrels that would sink any friendship. They flourish in a thousand incarnations of closeness and distance, warmth, loyalty and distrust.

-Erica E. Goode-

Happy Weekend, dear readers!

roommate lovin'

2011-04-06T18:22:00.000-04:00

Quite the busy weekend in Central Virginia this past weekend. My Princess Julia and Kristen came to visit for the weekend. Unfortunately, I had to work most of the weekend, but we were able to enjoy a Saturday morning social morning sipping coffee from our roommate mugs, watching television and catching up.

Saturday night, we met with friends over drinks at Mangia... the neighborhood wine bar which happens to be one of our favorite places to go in town. The beautiful hardwood floors, small candlelit tables and established wine collection set the mood for a classy atmosphere throughout the quaint rooms. Larry, our favorite {and most outrageous} bartender was quite pleased when we walked in, as it had been weeks since our last visit.

I'm looking forward to catching brunch on the patio at this very same place sometime this Spring.

And for the record, I still hate goodbyes.

I hope you are enjoying your week, dear readers!

quoteable monday

2011-04-05T01:03:00.001-04:00

"For what it’s worth, it’s never too late, or in my case too early, to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit… start whenever you want… you can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that stop you. I hope you feel things that you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."

{Benjamin Button}

via we heart it and la mia vita

it's a date...

2011-03-31T15:00:00.003-04:00

One of my all time favorite things is Skype!

{one form of social media that I will NOT be giving up soon}

This is one of the BEST ways that I have been able to keep in touch with my family and friends who don't live in the same city and/or state... for free! While talking on the phone is convenient for those days that you "don't feel like doing your hair", it's also so comforting seeing a familiar face while conversing with ones you love.

My mom {sometimes Mo, if he is not busy napping or tending to my parent's mini-chicken farm} and I Skype at least once a week and usually convinces my Daddy to drop in, too! I come from a crazy family- Mom and I laugh hysterically at the faces we make at each other over Skype. One night, I started taking pictures of her... to save for blackmail if ever deemed necessary. She wanted to learn how to take screenshots of her computer, so I was teaching her how... (yeah, she's cooler than your mom because she is proficient on a Mac)...

Mom learning how to take a screenshot

Mom when she learned how to take a screen shot... Blackmail pictures are a'coming, I'm sure!


Mom practicing her pose incase I was still taking pictures... she makes me laugh SO hard!

Mom put a baby hat on Mo... he wasn't as impressed as Mom and I were...

Oh, how I love Skyping with my mother!

And since one of my best friends Julia moved to DC, we've also set up several Skype dates.


J getting ready for her screenshot {and me expressing my excitement via fist-pump bc she is coming to see me this weekend!}

J wanting me to admire her beauty

J being silly

J blowing me goodnight kisses

I also Skype with my trainer, Liz any time I need a pep talk about my eating/exercising plan. Love Skype dates with her! So refreshing and motivational (though I don't have pictures of you, I love you and our Skype dates just as much, Liz!)

Have you ever tried Skype? It's free and an easy download and only requires a webcam! Try it if you haven't, especially if you live far away from your parents and/or best friends!

deleeeeeted

2011-03-29T15:00:00.002-04:00

I took the plunge last night, dear readers...

I deactivated it...

I don't want to rant and say that I was "concerned about my privacy," "Facebook was too much drama," or anything like that. In fact, I love Facebook. I love being able to connect with people I've met and stay in touch with those I care about from home. I love being able to have instant access to friend's pictures and it has been a great way to stay connected with my college {and even high school} friends since we have all gone our separate ways.

However, since resigning my position from my desk job in VA, I have become shamefully addicted to the social media site in an unhealthy way. I found myself logging in for 20, 30, 45 minutes multiple times a day, mindlessly flipping through pictures and status updates rather than using that time productively.

After I move back to the North later this Spring {more about this later}, I will probably reactivate. I truly do love the site and its sharing/connecting capabilities. I just need a break and need to be more productive...

Have you ever taken a Facebook/Social Media break?

quoteable monday

2011-03-28T23:07:00.001-04:00

{If you are coasting,
it means you are going downhill.}

C.P. Fulord Jr.

Mexi Maui: the recipe!

2011-03-25T15:56:00.000-04:00

If you love ethnic food and avocados as much as I do, I guarantee you will LOVE this recipe. This is a delicious, "fresh" tasting meal, I love it best in the summer months. I meant snap a shot of the meal last night, but forgot as I was too hungry {and excited} to think of much else other than eating dinner. Sorry for those cooks who need a picture!

One summer during college, I lived with one of my best friends Tarrah at her parent's house in Northern VA. We spent the lazy days of that summer at the lakehouse and enjoyed Mama B's cooking!

T and I enjoying the lake

the beautiful Lake Land'Or


Tarrah, her sister's and I at the beach that summer -2007-

This is one of the recipes Mama B sent me back to college with. It's a great "clean eating" recipe that is both filling and nutritious! Keeps in the fridge for 3-4 days, making it perfect for leftovers throughout the week!

Mexi Maui

1 16 oz can Black Beans
1/2 c. salsa {for "clean eating," choose a salsa that doesn't have added sugar; I used fresh pico de gallo found at my grocer's deli}
2 tbs minced onion
1 clove pressed garlic
2 tbs chopped fresh cilantro
1/4 c. extra virgin olive oil
1/4 c. red wine vinegar
1/2 tsp salt
1/2 tsp cumin
1/4 tsp paprika
1/4 tsp oregano
2 c. cubed avocados

I gently toss everything except the avocados in a bowl together. After thoroughly mixed, I toss in the avocados. Last night, I also diced an extra tomato that was about to go bad and tossed that in, too. Chill for 1+ hour before serving {although not necessary}. Serve next to/over steaming hot jasmine rice- or for a healthy alternative to the jasmine rice- brown rice or cooked quinoa.

*Note- I don't measure spices... normally just throw in what I think is best. Adjust seasonings to taste, keeping in mind that the flavors will all become more "bold" after sitting together for 1+ hour in the fridge.

As always, comment or email me if you try this recipe!

grabby hands

2011-03-22T17:00:00.000-04:00

I admit... since the iPad debuted last Spring, I have been dying to get my hands on one myself. Partly because it's an Apple product, partly because it's pretty, partly because it's a cooler version of the Kindle and partly because they now have a PINK cover for it. All legitimate reasons, right? Moving forward...

Here's what I keep going back and forth with...

If it's just a bigger version of the iPhone... do I truly need one? Is it a bigger version of the iPhone just without the "phone" option?

Would I be smarter to "invest" my money in a new MacBook rather than this pretty little gadget?

If there are any iPad users out there, please share your opinion/thoughts on it!

E is for... Excellence?

2011-03-21T18:23:00.000-04:00

I had to take a bloggy break last week... but no worries! I am back!! I traveled home for a long weekend last week... I hate taking my computer out when I'm visiting home, so I left it in my bag for most of the trip.

I wanted to share the Ritzy Misfit monogrammed necklace that came in last weekend! I love coming home to find packages were delivered that day!

Brooke did a great job getting exactly what I wanted. I am not ashamed to admit that I love this piece so much, I have been wearing it under my shirt even at the gym!

quoteable monday

2011-03-14T19:21:00.000-04:00

Keep moving forward.

Don't look back.

{came from a Dove candy wrapper,

taped to my computer at work}

Green Smoothies

2011-03-14T00:47:00.000-04:00

The number of emails that I have been getting asking about what I have been eating for the last month has been crazy and so exciting! I love talking about the changes that I have made... it helps me stay on track.

If you would like a break down of what I have been eating... please don't hesitate to shoot an email my way emaleigh85{at}gmail{dot}com. I'd be more than happy to suggest healthy alternatives to the junk that we put into our bodies most of which we aren't even aware of.

My current diet consists strictly of whole, nutritious foods- fruits, veggies, lean proteins, nuts and almond milk. Lots and lots of almond milk because I am an addict to this stuff. No sugar, no white flour and no fried foods.

About 90% of the time, I eat dinner by myself... which means I get to be as fancy or simple as I want with this meal! Tonight's dinner was one of my favorites... a green smoothie! Perfectly filling and a fantastic post-workout meal. I have been working every weekend to improve these smoothies to develop a recipe that I like. The possibilities and options to alter this recipe are endless.

I can't take credit for this recipe... but tonight I will share with you my version that was SO DELICIOUS and my favorite combination thus far...

* Starts with frozen berries... about a cup. You can also use fresh berries, but I like my smoothie SUPER cold... so I always use frozen. Also doesn't go bad as quickly as fresh berries do.

* 1 small can of manderin oranges. Rinse rinse rinse all the extra sugar off and try to buy the kind that aren't in syrup

* 1- 1 1/2 cups frozen spinach (or fresh... but frozen doesn't go bad as quickly and also keeps the smoothie COLD!)

* 1 frozen banana... whenever I see my bananas starting to get just a little too ripe... I toss them in the freezer to keep for these smoothies!

* 3/4 c frozen corn

* 1/2 diced up mango (I used fresh)

* 1/4 c Trop 50 orange juice

* 1/4 - 1/2 c almond milk

* 1 tablespoon of peanut/almond butter

* a few sprigs of fresh mint. Add this... it WILL change your life

I add all ingredients into the blender and blend blend blend. And then blend some more. And then when I think I have finally blended until I could not possibly blend anymore... I blend it a little more.

The more you blend... the less spinach leaves you'll have. Now... one downer of this smoothie (if you use blackberries) are the inevitable seeds. They definitely aren't my favorite. BUT... I promise you that once you perfect your smoothie... it will be better than any store-bought smoothie you have ever had. Don't be afraid to substitute and add/subtract ingredients to your liking!

If you try this smoothie... I want to know!

Happy blending!!

yesterday, today, tomorrow --->

2011-03-10T22:31:00.000-05:00

Pretty much sums up my life right now.

Thinking and planning for the future.

Making big-girl decisions.

I need to take a blog break until Sunday/Monday, dear readers. School and design work cannot be put off any longer. Be looking for another quinoa recipe this weekend!

quoteable monday

2011-03-07T13:00:00.003-05:00

Sometimes in the winds of change

we find our true direction.
{anonymous}


{via}

I don't normally comment on quoteable monday, but this one I had to...
(sent to me from my mommy)

I can't help but reflect on where I was two years ago. I thought I had my life together.

I was newly engaged to be married to a man who I thought was my dream man.

My direction fell in the shadow of his direction. And I didn't even know it.

The broken engagement weeks before the wedding was the greatest tragedy I have personally faced (first world, tragedy of course).

I reflect often on who I am today and where I am going in the future.

I hold close the things that I value the most...

being closer to my family, my sister, my grandparents,

maintaining the friendships that I hold dear,

pursuing a greater education than I thought I would ever achieve and

advancing my career beyond my wildest dreams.

Just as this quote says, in the winds of change, you find your true direction.

If you're going through the winds, I encourage you to keep persevering.

Keep waking up every morning.

Keep focusing on where your life is going to take you.

And in the end... you will find your own true direction.

(I'm definitely not anywhere near my end)

It's a fresh new day and a fresh new week.

Happy Monday, dear readers!!

Breakfast: The Meal of Champions

2011-03-06T14:49:00.001-05:00

Newest food obsession: quinoa (pronounced keen-wah).

Quinoa is a seed that is grown in South America. It has a light, fluffy texture when cooked and a mild nutty flavor. It's packed with protein, amino acids and dietary fiber, making it a nutrient-packed alternative to brown rice or couscous.

It's a tad pricier than rice or couscous, but considering the nutrients in this little seed and the bomb.com flavor, I'd say it's worth the few extra pennies. If you don't have a Whole Foods or Trader Joe's in your area, check for this grain in the organic section of your local grocery store (I'm not 100% sure Wal-Mart Supercenters carry it).

I'm telling you, dear readers... I am loving this new "diet" I have been on for 3 weeks and counting. There is an alternative to everything I crave: chocolate, something sweet, carbs, Mexican food... you name it, I have a healthy alternative.

The quinoa obsession continued this morning as I tried my hand at a new recipe- Quinoa Pancakes. Many thanks to Liz for introducing me to this delish healthy grain, which is now a staple in my pantry.

You can find the original recipe here, however, note below how I changed it to fit my needs and lower the cals even more.

Quinoa Pancakes

1 cup cooked quinoa (I fixed it the night before so less prep time in the morning)
3/4 cup wheat flour
2 teaspoons baking powder
1/2 teaspoon salt
1 large egg, plus 1 large egg white
1 tablespoon unsalted butter, plus more for skillet
1/4 cup unsweetened Vanilla almond milk
2 tablespoons pure maple syrup (where most of the cals come from, but considering this is a "natural sweetener," its ok... I imagine you could use agave and/or honey too)
*fresh fruit or sugar-free fruit preserves for topping

Directions

In a medium bowl, whisk together quinoa, flour, baking powder, and salt. In another medium bowl, whisk together egg, egg white, butter, milk, and syrup until smooth. Add egg mixture to flour mixture and whisk to combine.
Lightly coat a large nonstick skillet or griddle with butter and heat over medium-high. Drop batter by heaping tablespoonfuls into skillet. Cook until bubbles appear on top, 2 minutes. Flip cakes and cook until golden brown on underside, 2 minutes. Wipe skillet clean and repeat with more melted butter and remaining batter (reduce heat to medium if overbrowning). Serve with maple syrup and fresh fruit or preserves if desired.

Quinoa Pancakes = thebombshizzy

...and the March Madness continues!!

pour me a glass...

2011-03-05T14:38:00.000-05:00

I'm going to enjoy my first glass of wine in 3 weeks tonight!!

I finished my two week detox last Monday. Red wine was the hardest for me to give up, but the last thing I ran to when I was allowed to start incorporating it into my diet again. I wanted to be able to sit down and truly enjoy it. Between gym time, meetings at night, work and homework, I haven't really had time for it this past week.

One thing is for sure, I'm definitely going to enjoy a glass tonight.

Cheers to health and fitness, readers!

Happy Weekend!

March Madness

2011-03-03T16:00:00.000-05:00

Although I love me some college basketball and March Madness {GO HEELS!}, this March I'm planning on focusing on a different kind of March Madness.

Brittney has challenged us for the month of March to "get fit together" and I am certainly in! Purpose: re-prioritize our "New Years Resolutions/Goals" to soar through the month of March... together! Kind of like a "pick me up."

A few weeks ago, I blogged about some new fitness and food goals. I'm excited to meet some new friends who also have similar goals this spring... what better way to accomplish goals than doing it with someone else.

My March Madness Fitness Goals:

1. LOSE a DRESS SIZE! Can hardly wait to put those skinny jeans back on!

2. Regulate my sleep schedule

3. Attend a yoga class (never been and am terrified)

4. Workout 4-6 times a week

5. Continue eating the way I have been for the last 2.5 weeks

6. Hand in my resignation letter

I encourage you to check out Britt's challenge here. You'll find a growing number of bloggers who have set up great goals as well- such an encouragement! If you're up for the challenge, I definitely want to know!

GOOD LUCK!

Dating Do's and Don'ts

2011-03-02T16:00:00.004-05:00

Over the months, I have been out with a few guys, some dates and some not. However, after hanging out with someone recently, I came home furious about the quality {or lack of} of the conversation at dinner.

While I am in no way looking to date someone right now, I thought I would gather my thoughts and put together a dating do and dating don'ts list for your enjoyment...

Dating Do Not's:

- Do not cut me off mid conversation repeatedly only to interject with your own story that rivals mine. Since when did conversation become a competition?

- Do not make inappropriate jokes. Its disrespectful. There are only a select few people in my life who I think it's funny when they make inappropriate jokes... you have not made the cut.

- Do not ask me to entertain you. If I'm not talking to you, there is probably a reason why.

- Do not... I repeat: DO NOT call me high maintenance. If you want to show me what high maintenance is, it would be my pleasure to do so. I maintain myself well, but I am not high maintenance.

- Do not fall off the face of the earth then come back when it's convenient for you. This is called "taking advantage" and it's not appreciated. It's frustrating, disappointing and hurtful.

- Do not play the jealousy game. It seriously is the ugliest trait and not welcomed. If there is an issue, I am open to talk about it.

Dating Do's:

- Do suggest a fun activity, and no... you don't have to drop the benjamins for us to have a good time. Let's go for a walk at the park, cook dinner at home, read together at Starbucks, hike, play a board game or go for a drive to explore a local town. Granted, I just suggested things that I personally like, but I also suggested things that should probably cost below $15 total... which means most guys can appreciate the suggestion.

- Do hold the door for me and for others.

- Do ask me questions; don't leave the conversation for me to lead. I'm a pretty good conversationalist and will respond to your conversation appropriately.

- Do interact with my friends (but telling me that they are hot isn't cool).

- Do make sure I'm safe. This is something I appreciate about a dear friend of mine; regardless of whether I am traveling 6 hours or 20 minutes, he always follows up with me to make sure I made it to my destination safely. My dad does the same thing... it shows me you care and I appreciate this gesture more than I let on.

- Do respect my past. That's all it is, a past... but I still have insecurities because of it.

- Do be honest with me. I can handle it, I assure you.

- Do make me laugh; I appreciate so much the guys in my life who go out of their way to make me laugh.

These are simply based on past experiences and observations that I have made of things that I appreciate and things that I find disrespectful or irritating. Granted, I am no dating expert and these are just my general thoughts. I have some great men in my life now that I am so thankful for... the list of traits that I admire and appreciate in each of them are endless.

Do you have dating do's and don'ts?

I would love to hear them in a comment!

quoteable monday

2011-02-28T23:22:00.000-05:00

He who is not courageous enough to take risks will accomplish nothing in life.

{Muhammad Ali}

So cliche...

but what risks have you taken so far in 2011?

Princess Presents

2011-02-27T13:08:00.000-05:00

One of my favorite pastimes with my roommate/bff Julia is having what we call a "social morning."

They usually happen on the weekends because of our schedules. We set out alarms for about 9:30/10am. One of us gets up and makes coffee. We grab a bite to eat for breakfast and then head back to bed to read or talk for the rest of the morning.

I love sharing coffee with Julia. We always have the best conversations over coffee, no matter where we are or what we are doing. Since she recently moved for her job, we have changed it slightly so that we are drinking coffee and either talking on the phone or tweeting each other. :)

I spotted these monogrammed coffee mugs at Anthropologie at Christmastime when I was shopping with my mom. Since then, I haven't been able to get them off my mind! I think I'm in the middle of an obsession with everything being monogrammed with an "E."

I decided to get a mug for me and a mug for Julia as the perfect compliment to our social mornings! I am IN LOVE with them!!

Then again... who doesn't love anything from Anthropologie?!

Happy Sunday, dear readers!

14 pounds of precious

2011-02-25T17:00:00.001-05:00

Mom snapped a few shots of Mo the other day and posted them on her blog. If you know anything about me, you know that this Elmo is one of my most favorite dogs of all time... next to my beloved childhood Cocker-Spaniel Cinnamon and Mike's German Shepherd Elsa. The shots below explain why...

{click to make image larger}

I think "stubborn" and "spoiled-rotten" is written all over his face in these pictures. Apparently he was "being fickle" AKA throwing a fit probably due to one of three things:

1. Mom interrupted his nap time

2. Dad was outside, where he really wanted to be... doing you know, guy stuff

3. He just plain didn't want to do what he was being told to do

But seriously...

how could you not love that precious face and adorable snaggled teeth of his?

quoteable monday

2011-02-21T16:00:00.007-05:00

I, with a deeper instinct,

choose a man who compels my strength,

who makes enormous demands on me,

who does not doubt my courage or my toughness,

who does not believe me naive or innocent,

who has the courage to treat me like a woman.

{Anais Nin}

French born American author

1903-1977

falling in love...

2011-02-21T09:00:00.006-05:00

Today marks the day that 2 years ago, I naively said yes to a man who asked me to marry him. Little did I know then that I would be where I am today. That man is no longer in my life in any way and for that, I am so thankful.

His current life is irrelevant to mine; we are now two very different people living two very different lives. And who I was 2 years ago and who I am today, February 21, 2011 are two completely different women. I was once dangerously dependent, unable to make decisions without his input, naive and loved and respected that man more than I loved and respected myself. It was a tornado within a hurricane.

Every day is still a battle and every day I have to make decisions to continue to improve, to change, to grow... but who I am today is something to be proud of. With the exception of paying my own car insurance (my Dad helps me out because I'm in school), I am completely, 100% dependent on my income and my income alone. I pay my own insurance, my own bills and am working hard to reduce debt. I'm a part time Master's student and full-time employee. I make big-girl decisions daily that will directly impact my future and most importantly, I am learning to fall in love with myself.

That is why I have decided {after much hesitation} to purchase this pendant from Ritzy Misfit's Etsy store. Because it's more than just a pendant, it's a symbol of who I am. The artist explains what I am trying to explain perfectly: "No one is perfect, but we are all beautiful. These pendants give the feeling of being beautiful, unique and rough around the edges at the same time. My work reflects the wonderful, flawed idiosyncrasies in us all... and it makes us all breath-taking."

In an "E" of course :)

This is a treat for me... for getting where I am today and committing to becoming even more in the future. It's a reminder to learn to fall more in love with "me" everyday... character flaws and all.

I would love to hear if you own a piece of jewelry that shares a story!

share it in a comment!

ps. many emails and a few comments this weekend about sharing recipes and my secrets... first, THANK YOU for the encouragement. Second, recipes and secrets of staying on track coming this week!

pps. quoteable monday still coming today!

attitude really IS everything

2011-02-19T14:50:00.003-05:00

I'm about 5 days into my sugar/white flour detox and guess what? I feel better than I ever have before. No joke.

I can't really identify why I am so pumped about this new lifestyle of eating healthy and "green" {not organic, haven't jumped on that bandwagon yet}, but one thing I have really been focusing on this week is that it truly is all about your attitude.

There are plenty of things that I have eliminated from my diet this week: goldfish, chocolate, red wine {for about another week at least} and mac and cheese {all favorite foods here, people}.

BUT... there are also plenty of things that I have introduced myself to this week: protein packed green smoothies, Greek yogurt with honey, quinoa, pita chips and hummus. All week long I have had the chance to try new foods and new recipes, all packed with delicious and wholesome ingredients. How fun is that?!

Another thing that this change has brought back is my love for cooking. I stopped cooking about 2 years ago because I had a mentality that cooking for myself wasn't going to be fun. Hot dang, was I ever wrong... I love cooking for myself! I don't have to worry about pleasing others' taste buds or having dinner ready at a particular time... I simply fix what I want when I want.

What I'm trying to say is this: I could be complaining that I've given up goldfish, peanut butter M&Ms, red wine {heaven help me, one more week} and cooking a scrumptious dinner for two at my apartment, but I know that continuously thinking about the things that I cannot have will lead me down a road of misery and failure. Instead... it's all about a change in attitude towards the things that I can have, which right now include wholesome and truly delicious foods like veggies, fruits and whole grains... and yeah, even a little dark chocolate here and there. :)

My energy level has soared through the roof this week {no really, ask my coworkers} and I feel my confidence gaining strength with each day that goes by... a true change I am welcoming with open arms.

{just a friendly reminder}

I am so thankful for you, dear readers. You keep me going.

Happy Weekend!!!

#wah #immawimpygirl

2011-02-19T01:28:00.000-05:00

My brain and body have literally not stopped for about 3 weeks straight now.

No, but really...

*If it's not some underlying issue with my car, it's the internet/cable (and thus cell phone since the connection is powered through my internet when I'm at home) being down for an entire week (all my love to the winners at Comcast)

*If it's not the sp*ders that I killed last week that have been lingering in my bedroom window giving me nightmares for 7+ months, it's the mouse that is now leaving poo trails behind in my bathroom (insert #wah #immawimpygirl here)

*It's catching up on job applications but falling overwhelmingly behind on my homework

I have NO idea how some people do it all... seriously. However, dear readers... here are 4 things to which I am desperately thankful for tonight:

1. IT'S THE WEEKEND (enough said!)

2. although it was insanely inconvenient trying to diagnose the issues with my car, it has all been affordable and I've managed to NOT have to put a dime on my credit card

3. Advocare's Spark energy drink (bounce off the walls much?!) I believe I am becoming a believer...

4. Elizabeth Hanlin and the handful of "real" girls that I have been in contact with who have inspired, motivated and kept me going with my recent life-style change. I could never thank you enough.

I hope your Valentine's week was just as lovely as you, dear readers! xo

well that was fun

2011-02-16T18:00:00.000-05:00

This past weekend, my cousin Tracey and her boyfriend Jack came to visit me in Virginia! There is nothing I love more than when people visit. We hung out on Saturday and went skiing and snowboarding on Sunday at Wintergreen Resort here in Virginia.

Top of the mountain... it was COLD!

I wish I could have captured the view from up here...

One of the slopes!

Tracey, Jack and me... clearly truggin' but guess what? The slopes weren't the runway :)

Tracey and Jack on their boards

(I want her pink gear!)

Elsa (Mike's dog) look-alike! She was so precious.

Hands down the BEST weekend in a long, long time

(besides a few others...)

St. Valentine's Day!

2011-02-14T14:09:00.000-05:00

Valentine's Day is my most favorite holiday of all... I get so giddy around this time of year. I don't even have a boyfriend (well, you know... an exclusive one at least) and I still love this day.

A few reasons why I absolutely love this day and month:

1. It's a celebration of love. I love love.

2. It's pink and sparkly! It's a whole day where it's 100% ok to be in pink sparkles and be a giddy girl all day long.

3. It's a reminder that SPRING is coming!

(ummm, it's supposedly 62 and sunny here in Central VA!)

Instead of focusing on loving specifically (or lack of) significant other or ignoring this day completely (which tends to be the 2011 trend... come on, we all know it's unavoidable), pour love out to your family and closest friends today! I guarantee that if you stop to consider loving a broad range of others instead of your lack of significant other... it will boost your whole thinking process about the whole day.

Happy Loving!

a color-coded car engine... BRILLIANT!

2011-02-10T18:00:00.001-05:00

Note: I am not an auto mechanic.

I live 6 hours away from my Dad right now, who has always taken care of and fixed my car whenever necessary. I know nothing about my car. And when I say nothing... I mean I barely know how to pump gas.

January was a rough month for my little Pony... she was towed twice, once because she got stuck in the snow and once because she broke down on the side of the road after the car completely shut off from all power sources (scariest driving experience of my life). She also got a new battery, new radiator, new thermostat and various other new accessories (none of which are fun to buy).

Above is the picture I drew for my Dad when trying to explain to him the apparent "leak" that my mechanic in Virginia told me about. Go ahead... laugh away... Dad and Michael both did.

Now a letter to the auto-part makers:

Dear Auto-part Makers,

I would like to formally propose an idea. I think that instead of making every single engine part black or silver, you should start color-coding the various parts. Please note the following conversations for an example:

Ema: "Dad, the blue box in the engine is seeping purple fluid."

Dad: "Oh, ok. That's the radiator and the coolant. Check the purple fluid level."

This conversation makes much more sense than the following:

Ema: "Dad, the black box that is attached to the black cord on the right hand side if you're looking at the engine is seeping out yellow, brownish water/oil looking stuff... it's seeping out of the black pipe that is attached to the black box."

Dad: ".........."

Please consider making this an industry-wide change.

Kind regards,

A confused young woman who knows nothing about cars

Genius, I know...

Day 1

2011-02-09T20:10:00.000-05:00

I have lovely news for you today, dear readers!

I have FINALLY been able to lock down a personal trainer. Meet Elizabeth Hanlin, my personal trainer who lives 3,000 miles away.

I first "met" Liz when I found her fashion blog a little over a year ago. I instantly fell in love with her- she was transparent about her feelings, wasn't afraid to show emotion about real-life-girl-world situations and blogged about the prettiest shoes and clothes ever.

If you remember, my mom gave me personal trainer sessions to me for my birthday in December, leaving me with the simple task of finding a trainer of my preference. It hasn't been easy- school and work have been absolutely kicking my tail this semester, not leaving much time to devote to finding a trainer and gym. Somewhere along the lines, I stumbled across Liz's new site, "It's not just about being skinny" and knew she was the one.

Some of you are probably skeptical- a trainer that is 3,000 miles away? Yeah... that's motivational and a game plan to fail since she won't be there at the gym with you. I suppose it would be pretty easy to "cheat" and say that I ran 3 miles when I only ran 1... or that I did 300,000 sit ups when I only did 10. There could be a day where I tell her false information about when I ran or what I consumed that day. But guess what? Where would that get me? Definitely not back into my "skinny jeans," that's for sure.

This is something that I want, both for myself and for my future health. Like Liz says though, it's not just about being skinny... it's about changing my life and maintaining health. This is something that I am determined to accomplish... I want my skinny jeans and pretty Ann Taylor clothes back in my life. and I want my confidence back. I don't want to hide behind loose clothes anymore... or pass a skinny girl and wish that I was that size again. Will my skinny jeans alone bring that confidence back? Not entirely.... Will it be a quick, easy journey... probably not at all. But I know that this is something I need to work at, much more than what I am doing right now.

Greg and Jill's wedding is coming up in June. This is the perfect even to plan to wear a figure-forming, killer little black dress and a confident attitude to match. When I asked Liz how realistic this goal was, her response was, "absolutely realistic. you're going to look insanely different by then my lady." I literally smiled at my desk today when I read this.

I will be posting pictures and writing as necessary. I'm not going to promise weekly posts of my progress... my schedule is entirely too busy for that. But I will promise pictures and I will promise progress. It's about dang time to get this under control.

the ferocious beast

2011-02-08T18:16:00.001-05:00

Do not let this picture fool you. He may only be 14 pounds, but he is a 14 pound ferocious beast. He will demolish you very similar to the way he demolished what was once a ~~toy~~ fox (see below his paw). He will growl, pounce, bark and then rip you to shreds. Don't mess with the Shih Tzu.

I was able to go home this weekend for a long weekend. I had dinner with my Daddy, watched the UFC fight with my Sister, had lunch with my Mama, saw Julia, spent the night with best friends and of course... played fox with this vicious little ball of fury. It was just what I needed to get through these last few weeks of cold, dreary winter.

I hope you had a fabulous Superbowl weekend, loves!

quoteable monday

2011-02-07T23:22:00.001-05:00

mix red and white- passion and purity- to make pink...

the most feminine of hues

{kate spade}

{everytime I see this picture, I can literally smell them...}

Happy Monday, Loves!

letting go

2011-02-02T15:00:00.010-05:00

for as much as she stumbled, she's running

for as much as she runs, she still here

always hoping to find something quicker than heaven

to make the damage of her days disappear.

{eli band young}

{via: we heart it}

I cannot control other people. I cannot control how they treat me, what they say or what they do to me. But I can focus on moving forward, on finding strength and finding independence. I can focus on believing and loving and caring deeply again with gentle love and respect. I can focus on those who love, care and respect me for who I am now. I can believe that my tender, feminine heart will be healed and that no one, no man or woman will ever be able to satisfy or comfort my heart until I learn to truly love myself for who I am.

This week, I am focusing on letting go.

In my mind and in my heart.

Just letting go...

quoteable monday

2011-01-31T17:00:00.004-05:00

Looks stop me, intellect keeps me.

Intelligence is always stylish.

{naila}

Jackie O: another iconic symbol of grace and intelligence

Happy Monday!

solve your own problems

2011-01-31T00:38:00.001-05:00

This Spring is quite possibly going to be the death of my soul... or social life... which can be considered one in the same sometimes. :)

I AM:

1. taking a Math course (HATE MATH, see note above) and Grad level Communications class (which I LOVE!)...

2. Working 40+ hours a week...

3. Working freelance as a designer for weddings as well as polishing my skills on blog designs...

4. Job searching with hopes of relocating relatively soon...

5. setting goals for this week: join a gym. That's the one thing I am REALLY hoping to get crossed off my to-do list (which happens to be this long: <---------->). If I get this crossed off, I will be a happy, happy girl.

Wish me luck this week!

starbucks mugs

2011-01-27T17:00:00.000-05:00

As anyone else who loves design would agree-Starbucks does a darn good job of designing classic pieces for their mug collection... especially their annual Valentine's Day collection. Every year, I cannot WAIT to see their new designs...

{kiss me} Italian

The first two mugs, I used to own... my favorite mugs I have ever owned. Somehow they got lost... probably sometime that one year that I moved 5 times.

I picked this one up last year for my bff from home Erica, after I had promised she would be my 2010 Valentine. I packed it in with packs of Starbucks Via and a bag of coffee.

This one is part of the 2011 Valentine's Day collection that I picked up today with a gift card from Christmas. The back has "love" written in cursive. My newest favorite mug that brings warm, fuzzy, sparkly feelings to my heart.

My mom gave me this mug for Christmas this year. It's currently the one I use at work- it's ceramic, so it keeps my beverage of choice warm for a while. I love the damask!

I would give anything to get my hands on the white one with pink letters (or the first one again that says "kiss me"... I'd love to have that one back). I absolutely love love love this one though... it's so pretty!

I don't know what it is about Starbucks' mugs... but man alive, they are one of my favorite things ever. It's the little things. :)

cha cha cha chaaaaanges

2011-01-25T20:31:00.000-05:00

Note:

I hate change.

Almost as much as I hate goodbyes.

No matter what I do to my hair... I always revert back to my "classic"... long, blonde hair. Then sometimes... when I really feel like a fun little change (and have time)... I roll it with hot rollers for kicks and giggles. But don't get excited too quickly, it happens maybe once a month.

Second note: I also have "hair anxiety." You know... when you're afraid to get your hair cut because you're afraid they're going to jank it all up {yes, I just said jank}. Well this, dear readers... is the reason why *I* have hair anxiety...

I have psyched myself up for almost 3 weeks about going to get my hair trimmed. Then I finally went. I was so tense, my stylist could tell, so she told me to "relax." So I closed my eyes. And then I opened my eyes and my hair was gone. As in... it was on the floor, no longer attached to my head.

BEFORE:

{I posted this picture a few weeks ago, but it's a good shot of my long hair}

AFTER:

{yes, this was taken at my work desk.

Yes, those are pink Christmas lights up in the background...

but hey, I'm there for 8+ hours every day, so why not make it pretty?}

I feel like I look like I am 5 years old. This is not ok.

ps. on a good note, my brother is the best. He is the one who got this picture first via email. And then proceeded to tell me everything I could possibly want to hear and more. I am so lucky :)

quoteable monday

2011-01-24T18:00:00.001-05:00

We all take different paths in life,

but no matter where we go,

we take a little piece of each other everywhere.

{t. mcgraw}

goodbyes

2011-01-23T23:10:00.000-05:00

One thing is for sure:

I absolutely hate goodbyes.

My roommate and one of my very best friends left for an internship in DC today. While I am so happy and so proud of her, her presence will be missed every day while she is gone.

Great memories still linger in the air at Princeton Circle. They always say to never live with your best friend, but we never seemed to mind.

My favorite memories:

social mornings

mac and cheese snack time

PM alarm clocks

wine and trash television nights

curfews

girl talk

white boards (the way we all communicate on a daily basis)

{Jules, me, Vanessa}

This was her last weekend in town for a while. I can honestly say we had a blast as we painted this little town in Southwest Virginia... Northern girl style.

{J and I with our wonderful boyfriend Jorge}

J's friendship is so dear to me; she was the first to rush over at almost 1 in the morning on that devastating weekend in August 2009. I still remember that night like it was yesterday as she held me and told me that everything was going to be ok. She has laughed with me, cried with me and smacked me in the face when I needed it most over the last year and a half. We have both been through thick and thin as individuals, but she always remains a constant in my life, and for that... I am truly thankful.

I know you're reading this, J! Remember this until you return to the South:

I love-a you-a!

The Amaryllis

2011-01-22T17:19:00.002-05:00

I have been a bit behind with my blog posting.

I was miserably sick last weekend.

School started last week.

Work kicked my tail last week.

Last week was also my roommate's last week in town.

Oh yeah, and I was cranky.

I have fallen behind with my post about my amaryllis!

{week two}

{week three- woooah!}

I'm hoping to somehow continue balancing working full-time, homework, designing "part-time" {3 wedding packages this Spring!} and maintaining regular blog posts. Wish me luck!

observing the ant

2011-01-20T16:00:00.009-05:00

My mom sent me this in an email in response to Tuesday night's post.
I thought I would share...

Written by LB Cowman in 1925 after facing dry places in her life:

"Observe the ant," the great Oriental conqueror Tamerlane told his friends. In relating a story from his early life, he said, "I once was forced to take shelter from my enemies in a dilapidated building, where I sat alone for many hours. Wishing to divert my mind from my hopeless situation, I fixed my eyes on an ant carrying a kernel of corn larger than itself up a high wall. I counted its attempts to accomplish this feat. The corn fell sixty-nine times to the ground, but the insect persevered. The seventieth time it reached the top. The ant's accomplishment gave me courage for the moment, and I never forgot the lesson."

I resolved never to stop until I had come to the goal and achieved my purpose.

{david livingston}

Set your goals. Define your purpose. Strive.

{cynthia gayle rust}

That's exactly what I am going to focus on every time I have a night like Tuesday night: I'll set my goals. Define my purpose. Then strive.

I love my mommie. Words cannot express how truly thankful I am for such a selfless influence in my life.

kind of a bad day

2011-01-18T23:48:00.002-05:00

I've been cranky pants all day today. Sad and upset for no particular reason, really. Do you ever have days like that? Probably girls more so that guys... still an unexplainable and unavoidable calamity regardless.

Do you ever find it incredibly difficult to keep your head above water? I knew today was going to be a rough day from the moment I rolled out of bed at 6am. My heart was heavy during my normal morning routine and even heavier by the time I sat down in front of my work computer 2 hours later. 110% of me did not want to face today. I knew it was going to be a day where I yearned to just crawl back in bed and sleep until the next morning. It's an escape really, from reality... from emotion... from feeling... from my mind being my worst enemy.

The fact is- my mind is my worst enemy. I blame myself for everything... for every little failure in life that I have faced thus far- broken relationships and friendships mainly, I rationalize a reason to put all the blame on myself. It's a brutal mental fight that takes place in my mind daily... and quite frankly, I'm so weary of dealing with it.

I trust too easily, but you know what? I'll still pick myself back up and face the world again... all with the grace of a woman... never the grief of a child. And once again... everything will prove to be ok. Everything always proves to be ok.

I'm not usually this vulnerable or this emotional on my blog. I like to keep it a happy place... but today... today is different. Today, I needed to write.

quoteable monday

2011-01-17T16:00:00.001-05:00

Women are strange and incomprehensible,

a device invented by Providence to keep the wit of man well sharpened by constant employment.

{Arnold Bennett}

{Audrey, of course}

the perfect Saturday afternoon

2011-01-15T22:17:00.000-05:00

Today was such a lovely Saturday afternoon... One of my absolute favorite things to do is go for a ride with no destination in mind. It's relaxing and gives my mind a chance to wind down and focus on nothing but the scene painted around me and good conversation... a perfect way to spend a sunny Saturday or Sunday afternoon.

In the 5+ years I've lived in Southwest Virginia, I have never ever taken a ride on the Blue Ridge Parkway, but today... that changed!

A dear friend and I spontaneously started driving around town and ended up on the Blue Ridge Parkway, a picturesque road that parallels the James River and Blue Ridge Mountains. I couldn't get over the scenes!

While I love the swanky city life and high rise lights, nothing says relax like a ride in the country.

ps. I've been miserably sick, lovelies. More posts coming this week. :)

"just be you"

2011-01-13T16:00:00.004-05:00

I have been thinking a lot lately about who I am. A dear friend of mine often reminds me to "just be you." I am so thankful for that reminder.

In a culture where we constantly try to be someone else- I encourage you to reflect on who you truly are.

i am:

*very feminine- completely awed by the color pink, flowers, sparkles and/or lace.

*classy

*high maintenance, yet independent and self-sufficient

*determined and hard working
*loyal

*a romantic at heart, but not easily charmed

Along with other character traits, both good and bad, this is who I am. Though it would be lovely to take a few components that I admire in other people and somehow magically intertwine them into my being... it simply will never happen. I am who I am. I shouldn't have to change myself in order for another person to love me... and I won't. Granted, there is always room for improvement in some areas, but I'm not going to try to change who I am and what I enjoy for the simple sake of "love."

I am slowly learning to be ok with all of this.

I encourage you, dear readers:

just be you... just the way you are.

{princess tarrah}

2011-01-12T22:19:00.000-05:00

happy birthday to one of my dearest and best friends, Tarrah.

We've made great memories over the last 5 years. I love you!

Quoteable Monday

2011-01-10T18:00:00.006-05:00

Her kisses left something to be desired...

the rest of her.

{author unknown}

from Roman Holiday

14 pounds of sweetness

2011-01-07T16:47:00.000-05:00

I miss this sweet pup aka my parent's 4th {and favorite} child. He lives 6 hours away with my parents in Delaware.

I miss his playfulness.

I miss his sour faces when his Mother gives him a bath.

I miss his shiny little lip.

I miss his snaggled teeth.

He is the most stubborn, high maintenance dog our family has ever owned... but man, do I miss all 14 pounds of him.

I'll be home soon, Elmo. Until then, take care of your Mother and your Father.

Love,
Sister

The Amaryllis

2011-01-06T23:04:00.000-05:00

My roommate and I planted an Amaryllis.

{week one}

The blooms are supposed to be pink and should be ready by Valentine's Day!

The last amaryllis that I planted never bloomed or grew. Probably a "pun" considering who gave it to me. :)

I'll post weekly updates, so check back to see this pretty flower grow. {crossing my fingers I have good results this time}

dreams

2011-01-04T17:00:00.001-05:00

I'm dreaming of buying my own townhome/small house...

I day dream about it every.single.day.

I dream about the rooms and how I would decorate them and what each room would be used for.

This would be the inspiration for my office-slash-closet {yes, I said and mean closet}. Pink, cream, flowers and lots of light pouring through the windows. And lots of books... lots and lots of books.

I dream about doing renovations with my Daddy. And calling my Mom to come spend the day and shop. I dream of having a puppy at home and hosting friends for game nights. I dream of grabbing a huge cup of coffee and my books and crawling back into bed on Saturday mornings and playing in my office {slash closet} all day on Sunday.

This dream will come true. And I'm going to do it by myself. So I can have my pink office. It will be my office and my house. This dream is not out of my reach. It simply means I have to be more persistent career wise and make wise financial decisions. Never a better time to learn than now.

What do you dream of?

quoteable monday

2011-01-03T19:16:00.000-05:00

Thanks to kHm for the inspiration for Quoteable Monday... I'll share quotes from my personal life and friends, funny or witty quotes and quotes that I find inspirational. Let's see how it goes for a few weeks... Let me know what you think!

You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every

experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face.

{Eleanor Roosevelt}

{via google}

here's to you, 2011

2010-12-31T23:59:00.004-05:00

many highs and many lows, but I have to say... 2010 beat 2009 hands down.

cheers to a new year!

may you reflect on the good times and the bad:

learn and be determined to always move forward

Happy 2011!

12908198213 bajillion left to kill

2010-12-31T10:00:00.006-05:00

I was reading in bed last night when I happened to glance out of the corner of my eye and notice *this* thing lingering on my comforter.

GROSS!

I'll admit- I did squeal in terror, but only because I thought it was a certain other 8 legged creature of which I am deathly terrified.

I calmly gathered him and quickly flushed him down the john.

ema: 1

stink bug: 0

my $10 argyle sweater

2010-12-30T10:00:00.025-05:00

I have always loved the classic look of argyle, but have never been able to find a piece that flatters my figure. While bustling around Target finishing {actually, *starting} Christmas shopping last week, I saw a cute sweater and decided to try it on, thinking it would look nice with a white button-up underneath.

I felt classic, simple and pretty at work on Tuesday and am determined to find more argyle that flatters. It was comfortable for a day around my office and as a bonus, I scored it for only $10. I wore it with my classic pearl necklace and my new gold KS bag that I got for my birthday.

{I also felt like I should have been on my way to prep school}

{have courage}

2010-12-29T08:00:00.004-05:00

I've stated many times before, but Kate Spade is my all-time favorite designer. I love her for her whimsical and playful, yet classic and functional pieces.

I also love her for her quotes that she tucks away in secret places throughout her products. On the inside of my cell phone case, you can find the simple words "have courage" imprinted inside, only noticeable if you take the entire case off. I love that because it's like a message for me, a reminder to "have courage" to face life's daily trails.

This year, my brother treated me to 2 KS bags {what a lucky sister I am!} Here is the one I got for Christmas. When I saw this bag in the store, I immediately fell in love. I love the classic look of this bag.

Kate's message on this one is "have a point of view." I love this reminder, as one of my hardest struggles is to have a backbone or my own point of view... and if I have developed my own point of view, I am usually too passive to state it. Thank you, Kate for the reminder! I always keep your little message cards in the bag they came in!

Note: Mustangs are not considered "snow" cars

2010-12-28T00:17:00.007-05:00

Today definitely didn't start out as the best day of my life.

Due to a freak snow storm, I was snowed in at my parent's house for an extra day. Hooray! But when I went to leave early this afternoon, I unfortunately threw my car in a ditch. Typically, I don't leave the house since my car isn't particularly "snow friendly," but I didn't really have a choice considering I had to be back to work for my job in Virginia.

I was a nervous wreck this afternoon/evening driving, but am thankful for a Dad who {once again} saved my day.

Did anyone else on the East coast get slammed with the storm?

footie pajamas

2010-12-26T10:39:00.004-05:00

This Christmas was so fun! So much time spent with family and I am so thankful!

Every Christmas Eve, my mom's side of the family gathers together for food, fun and games. It's always a night of laughter and memories.

This year, all of the 20-30 year olds decided it would be fun to show up in footie pajamas!

I can't locate a picture of all of us, but here is a picture of my cousins Jason and Tracey, myself, my brother and my sister! It was hilarious to say the least- the boys didn't remain in their onesies for very long- only long enough to snap a few pictures.

How was your Christmas?

I hope it was filled with family, fun and laughter.

twinkle lights

2010-12-24T16:00:00.000-05:00

why are twinkle lights so romantic?

May your Christmas Eve be filled with laughter, family and romance.

And for our soldiers who are serving overseas this Christmas, you and your families are in my heart. We could never show enough gratitude.

Xo,
E

birthday sparkles!

2010-12-23T22:46:00.004-05:00

I had the best day today!

My 25th birthday was filled with plenty of princess sparkles...

new gold kate spade bag

simple black leather pumps

(needed these, mine are shot!)

cell phone cases and a martini glass from sister!

I also got some cash...

(more on how that it's going to be spent later)

As well as a "gift certificate" for sessions with a personal trainer!!

The gym/personal trainer is something that I've always wanted to do... I always get discouraged when I feel like I'm working my tail off, yet I'm not getting anywhere. This fall, I wanted to join a gym, but the money to fork out on joining fees were just never there.

I'm super stoked about this endeavor and cannot WAIT to start researching more about personal trainers when I return to Virginia.

Today was wonderful. I am so happy.

Xo,

ps. one of my friends also sent me this picture today of his dad's pup and I just couldn't help but share. his name is Chance- how precious!

Birthday Sparkles

2010-12-23T09:00:00.001-05:00

To Ema:

Happy birthday!

Love, Ema

Not the mani/pedi I was going to treat myself to for my birthday, but at least I don't have to shell out $1,000+ for a new computer this holiday season.

I'm sure the day will still be filled with plenty of birthday sparkles. I'm 25 today!

funny texts

2010-12-22T09:00:00.001-05:00

I could not help but laugh the other day after I got this text from one of my best friends back home {his texts are in gray}.

There are about 10 more "why what's up" messages after this!
And then say men can't get a word in otherwise! Ha!

I can always count on him for a good laugh after a tough day and I am thankful for the way he looks out for those he is closest to. Although we are prone to our tiffs he has taught me a lot about friendship and respect- both self-respect and respect for others.

Check out a few of my favorite pictures/memories below!

The first two were from a weekend trip the three of us took together... his expressions were priceless as Erica and I danced around Starbucks that morning acting like total girls!

The last is a picture of us with his best friend and fiance- the 4 of us went on a cruise together! More pictures coming soon!

Xo,
E

317am

2010-12-21T23:18:00.004-05:00

Did anyone stay up to watch the 2010 Winter Solstice Lunar Eclipse?

It occurred on the East coast between the hours of 1am and 5am, with the best time to view said to be at 3:17am.

I had set my alarm for 3:10am with the hopes of feeling well enough to wake up but when the alarm rang, I decided that sleep was more precious since 1. I had to be up {and functioning} in 3 hours for work and 2. I haven't been feeling well this week, and 3. it was entirely too cold to even think about getting out of my warm bed.

I figured I would try to catch it on YouTube, at least some highlights... I was even going to upload a video on here, but alot of the videos that people uploaded seem to be in violation of the site's terms of use.

{via google}

The Solar Systems has always fascinated me. One of my fondest memories of my childhood is when my mom purchased a telescope for me when I was in middle school for Christmas. I remember trudging through the backwoods fields with her on freezing cold nights to catch a meteor shower or try and connect the constellations. I even remember one time, she found Saturn! I will never forget viewing the rings through that tiny telescope lens. It was thrilling!

If you missed this eclipse, the next viewable one in North America will be in December 2011!

Last Minute Shopping

2010-12-20T00:45:00.017-05:00

Anyone else running around panicking for last-minute Christmas gifts? Here are some thoughtful, yet inexpensive ideas. Cheap enough to buy in bulk and tuck under the tree for that unexpected friend who pops in to exchange gifts and you didn't think they were "that kind" of friend.

One of my favorite gifts to keep handy are scarves. These are usually pretty enough to skip the box and wrap in a simple ribbon. Check Wal-Mart, Target and T.J. Maxx for a nice feel and inexpensive patterns. Guys love scarves, too so make sure to pick out a few masculine prints for them as well!

Forever 21 also has some cute, inexpensive jewelry. Pick up a few accessories and drop a few coordinating pieces in a cute Christmas bag. Your girlfriends will love it!

For the girls who have many a guy friend: keep a few $5 Starbucks {or my favorite, a local coffee shop} gift cards, mugs {try to skip the festival ones so they can enjoy all year} or a mini bag of Starbucks Christmas blend available.

And lastly, a bottle of wine is always appreciated by many. I love purchasing wines from local vineyards- it gives them a chance to experience where you live!

These are all gifts that you can easily skip the box or bag and tie a cute bow or ribbon around- perfect for grabbing at the last minute and without the hassle and embarrassment of peeking through bags hoping your grabbing an appropriate gift for your guest. And the best part is, if you bought more than you need- all these gifts would be perfect to enjoy yourself!

Happy shopping!

Xo,
E

New Blog!

2010-12-19T17:08:00.002-05:00

I feel like I often come back to my blog, excusing my lack of posts because I've been busy and then promise to start blogging more. It's hard, let me tell you!

The truth is- I have been busy. Besides working full time, I took my first classes for my Master's degree this semester. LOTS of writing. And reading. And studying. Quite honestly, after staring at computer all day at work, it's hard to come home, only to stare at a computer screen even longer to read and write school papers/assignments. Clearly, by the time my day is done, the last thing I want to do is sit at a computer screen and read/write more, even if it's for pleasure.

I can't make promises, but I am going to make every effort to set aside a few hours each week to write more. Another problem that I have is that I rarely know what to write about. One of my goals is to begin writing more about my every day life, similar to what my friend Brittney does. I just love her blog, it is so darling.

Recently, I have made some big changes in my life, my blog {obviously} being one of them. After reading my new favorite book, I decided that it was time to make some improvements on my life and the way that I think about myself and since I would like for my blog to become a part of my every day life... I wanted to change it up. I wanted it to reflect not only who I am, but also where I am going. I think with the pink, the pearls and Audrey Hepburn... I was able to get exactly what I wanted. It's still not done, but it's done enough to start blogging again. :)

As far as "my story" goes, I am still debating if I am going to finish it. It's tough, and I haven' t been able to sit down and gather my thoughts. Let me know if you are interested in hearing the rest.. then maybe I will try to compose a last post or two.

So look for some posts this week, friends! Tonight, I am going to try and master the art of "scheduled posts." If there any little known tricks, be sure to pass them along!

xo,
E

with the grace of a woman

2010-10-27T21:25:00.004-04:00

After a while, you learn the subtle difference

Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,

And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning

And company doesn't mean security,

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts

And presents aren't promises,

And you begin to accept your defeats

With your head up and your eyes open,

With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child,

And learn to build all your roads on today

Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans,

And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight

And after a while, you learn

That even sunshine burns if you get too much.

So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,

Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure...

That you really are strong

And you really do have worth

And you learn and learn...

With every goodbye, you learn.

{Shoffstall}

What have you learned?

Things that I would enjoy...

2010-10-21T17:36:00.006-04:00

"I should unsubscribe from Kate Spade's daily email to my inbox."

-tis a common thought that crosses my mind every morning when I open my email.

I can at least drool though, right?

Dear Kate,

I love your new "34th Street Printed Treesh". You blended the leopard trend with a classic flawlessly.

I also need to replace my classic black bag and would love to add this to my collection.

Black patent leather. Classy. Chic. Modern.

I also found your new books to be quite adorable. I would love to add these to my bookshelf. I also am in love that you incorporated "she is quick and curious and playful and strong" somewhere in each of these books. I look forward to adding these to my collection.

Oh Kate, you never fail to impress me. You are classy and modern, yet vintage and playful. You bring out the best in me and no matter how many times the fateful thought to unsubscribe from your emails crosses my mind, I will always be faithful to your daily correspondence.

Love always,

Contentment, Pt 2

2010-10-11T23:36:00.007-04:00

I had an entire post written out about contentment, pt 2. I was putting the finishing touches on it.

Then I found this sticky note on my computer from my sister from a year ago:

Dear SIssy,

I know one day you are going to want to clear this account. I know it is going to be really really hard for you. I just want you to know how much i love and care for you. You are one of the most amazinng people i know.

Please never forget that or let anyone make you think differently.

Love,

Ana

And then I bawled.

I was using my "old account", the account I used for all my wedding planning on my computer tonight because the internet wouldn't connect on my normal account. I've been slowly deleting pictures, files, documents from this account...

I love my Sister. I cannot begin to tell you how much she got me through the worst time of my life to date. She loved me the way a little sister loves her big sister. She slept with me to keep me company. She dragged me out of the house to go for a ride. She listened to me and watched me cry daily. For months.

I miss her dearly. I need to be physically close to her again...

{circa 2008}

I can't stop crying. I think I'll keep this on my computer for a while.

Contentment, Part One

2010-10-10T22:45:00.006-04:00

Lately I have been learning contentment, mainly in three ways.

The first is contentment with where I am geographically.

I currently live in Central Virginia and am not a fan. Most of all, I miss my family. I miss my dear friends. I miss the city lights that were a mere hour drive away. I miss bike rides with my Mom and I miss my dog.

Back in March, I decided to move to Virginia because of an incredible job opportunity and while I am not a fan of my location, I am trying to learn contentment. I am here for a reason: the known reason is because of work. I was offered a job at a University that pays for my education. It was a hard decision to move away from my family and friends, but with the support and encouragement from those who know me best, I decided it would be foolish to give up such an opportunity. I also knew, deep down, that if I didn't take full advantage of this opportunity, I would regret it in 10 years.

At the time of the move, I was living in the "here and now." I wasn't actively thinking about the future. The move and this job has encouraged me to not only think of the future, but prepare for the future now.

Here are some of my goals:

1. Begin chipping away at my Masters degree. My job will pay for 6 classes a year. It will take me 2 years to finish my degree, if I decide to stay at my current job.

2. In the Spring, I will begin looking for another job- ideally at another university in the DC, Philly or Wilmington area. This will put me a mere 1-2 hour drive from my family.

3. While I'm waiting to begin applying for a new job, I will take full advantage of the learning experience I have been given now. I will work hard and develop my professional skills. There is no better time than now for hands on experience. I have been blessed with an incredible boss who previously worked for Coca-Cola. From day 1, he has offered coaching for his employees; he coaches and pushes them into fields that encourage professional development. You really can't ask for a better boss.

4. I plan to take advantage of where I live now. It's not ideal, but I'm here... and will be here for at least 6-ish more months. Instead of escaping every weekend, my roommate and I have been enjoying getting to know our area... researching culture-rich festivals and activities. The Fall is a perfect time for this, which will carry right over to Holiday parties and festivities. Before I know it, it'll be time to start job searching... and perhaps one day I'll miss this town and this time in my life. Why not make the most of it while I'm here now?

I have 2 more areas that I'm learning to be content:

1. my body and body image

2. love

I'll be writing about BOTH of these in future posts.

For tonight, I'll leave you with an Audrey quote to ponder:

{A quality education has the power to transform societies in a single generation, provide children with the protection they need from the hazards of poverty, labor exploitation and disease, and given them the knowledge, skills and confidence to reach their full potential} AH

Kate Spade + Office Supplies = LOVE

2010-10-06T16:49:00.005-04:00

Does anyone else out there have an obsession with office supplies?

Probably one of my all-time favorite movie quotes is: "Don't you just love New York in the Fall? It makes me want to buy school supplies. I would send you a bouquet of newly sharpened pencils if I knew your name and address..."

Anyone know what movie that quote is from?

In my daily email from katespade.com, they featured their new 2011 calendar.

What isn't to love about this gem?

Kate Spade + office supplies = love

This WILL be going on my Christmas/birthday list.

goals

2010-09-28T22:30:00.008-04:00

Recently, I've been focusing on goals for my life, both long term and short term.

Over the next few days, I'm going to be sharing what those goals are, one by one!

Tonight, I'm going to share about my weight loss goal.

For kicks and giggles the other night, I pulled out my old phone, the one I had pre-iPhone, aka before my life was changed. I was flipping through old text messages from the beginning of the year and eventually started flipping through old pictures. Although I don't have the ability to put the exact picture I'm thinking of on the blog (I have no way of getting it off the phone), I still have pictures from that month... which I believe was the slimmest I have ever been. Check it out here:

{January-ish 2010}

Although I haven't gained tons and tons of weight, I have started to realize the impact that having a sit-down-all-day-at-my-desk kind of job has affected my body. Prior to having my current desk job, I was a server which meant constant activity and running around on busy nights. I didn't realize how much this would affect me. My goal is to fit into my jeans that I wore last winter, very comfortably {which would be about a size}.

Here is what I'm doing to shed a few pounds:

1. running/walking- my goal is at least 3 times a week, if not 4
2. packing lunch instead of eating out every day (which hey, saves money too!)
3. when I do decide on a meal out, order from the kid's menu OR share a meal with someone at the table
4. cutting my coffee intake from 4+ cups/day to 1-2 cups/day. Although a small change, I have noticed a huge intake as I consumed many calories from the flavored coffee creamer I spoiled myself with

Although these are all small changes, I'm hoping they add up and I can slim down before Christmas. I would love to be able to fit comfortably in the clothes I purchases last year. {also planning on dying my hair back to this color for the Fall/Winter as well, as it carried my coloring extremely well}

What are some goals you've set for yourself lately?

Stay tuned this week for another goal!

What I'm reading

2010-09-26T13:25:00.005-04:00

Recently, my roommate and I have been obsessed with shaping our lives to reflect the always stylish, always classy, always graceful Audrey Hepburn. Our purpose: become classy, intelligent and impressionable young women as we prepare to enter into our professional careers.

I love my roommate Julia. We always have the best of times laughing and sarcastically criticizing each others efforts to get our lives together. All joking aside, though- she is one of the most dedicated, smart and driven ladies that I know. While she enjoys an awesome time with friends from time to time, she has never let that get in the way of her ultimate career and academic goals. She's been through a lot and her determination to succeed is an inspiration to constantly move toward a higher goal. Check us out enjoying a night out a few weeks ago with the ultimate classy friend, Brittney Joy:

(Brit's Blackberry Photo)

Jules and I have been enjoying spending roommate time devouring our new "Audrey books", we commonly refer to them. Currently, I am reading the chapter {in the book pictured above} entitled "Words, Words, Words". A sneak peak into the chapter so far: "any girl worth her Manolo Blahniks knows how to talk the talk and walk the walk." Author Jordan Christy writes about the importance of improving our speach to communicate intelligence, elimating toxic phrases and words such as "ummm, yeah" and "like, totally" that Lindsay Lohan and Paris Hilton have made popular among women today.

So far, I love this book! Inspiring and motivational, it is a reminder to keep moving forward to the goals of the future.

What books are you reading or currently enjoying?
Any of you reading on a Kindle?

Come Home

2010-09-03T15:06:00.001-04:00

I love this song.

Makes me wonder who it's from, and who it is written to...

ONE REPUBLIC
COME HOME

I don't have a clever title for this one

2010-08-10T00:07:00.004-04:00

I won't lie or beat around the bush about tonight's post.

I've been sad all day.

A kind of sadness though, where I'm ok- complete, 100% ok.
Still, I'm sad. heavy. emotional.

One year ago today, my life changed and was never going to return to the normal that I knew. A year ago today, I was in a ball in the kitchen floor as my mother sat next to me, handing me tissue after tissue, watching her daughter face the deepest pain she had ever known. A year ago today, the person I had trusted, love more than life itself and innocently given my entire heart to shattered the world as I knew it.

Today has stirred up more emotions that I care to allow, but I'm also completely at peace with it. It's a step in healing; it's grieving and most importantly, it's a step in moving forward. I've had to close my eyes several times today as I choked back years; it was during these moments that I came to the understanding and peace that it's ok that I'm grieving today, it's ok that tears are stinging my eyes.

I have a feeling that these coming weeks will be an emotional roller-coaster. I'll have my ups and downs; my days where I'm on top of the world and other days where I want nothing more than to crawl into bed and read my favorite novel in an attempt to escape the present emotion and slip into a world where I can easily predict the entire ending chapter.

I am determined of several things this month:

1. I will exercise to fight even the slightest hints of depression
2. I will {finally} finish "my story" that I haven't had the courage to finish for fear of facing the emotion that would accompany my writing
3. I will go through this process, I will grieve and I will cry, but I won't let this be a road block to the promising future I hold.

This part of my life is and always will be a part of my past. I'm not going to sweep it under the rug and and I'm definitely not embarrassed to write about it anymore. Everyone deals with grief differently. So, let this be your warning: if anyone dares tell me this is something I shouldn't be writing about or should have "let go" long ago, then I suggest you read something else. I will cut you.

With a few boxes of Kleenex and a few longs calls home, I'll make it through this. I'll be a stronger person with a brighter future. It helps that I have the most amazing support group known to mankind.

2010-07-27T13:22:00.002-04:00

Ever since Sam re-did my blog, I've been having a hard time coming up with things to write about. Does anyone else have that problem? How do you girls {and the few guys that read this} come up with things to write about?

For today's post {while I'm thinking about some other things to blog about}, I'm going to play a fun game that one of my favorite blogger and great friend had on her blog. Check it out, and check out her blog, too!

Outside my window: panoramic view of the Blue Ridge Mountains. Beauitful. It's raining today, but it's still beautiful.

The time is: 1.27 pm

Today I feel: happy and excited, but slightly stressed

I am thinking: that I can't wait to go to the eye doctor. And also why my beck burns so badly after sitting down all day in this chair...

I am going to: purchase these beauties upon completion/graduation of my Masters. Yeah... I'll be wearing these when I walk.

Nude or black?

I am wearing: white pants {SO comfortable}, purple top that is DRIVING ME NUTS bc it won't stay put and simple black pumps

I wish: someone would pay off my student loan debt

I am reading: student's files bc I'm at work. ;)

I am working on: your dad

I am hoping: someone has coffee creamer around here

I am hearing: people talking

Around the house: packing it up! my room at least... moving in with JULES!!!!

I bet you didn't know: I would trade almost anything for a killer job in a big city. hmm... 2 short years, it's coming.

One of my favorite things to do: wake up on a Saturday morning, brew a HUGE cup of coffee in my favorite mug and crawl back into bed with a book. If it's the Summer though, I LOVE spending weekends at the lake or the beach.

Join the fun! Copy/Paste on your blog!

Suggestions are welcome for future posts! What do you want to read about?

Where I've Been: here and there and everywhere!

2010-07-19T17:31:00.025-04:00

Well... here it is in pictures.

Because pictures are always more fun...

Opening night for the Phillies April 2010
BEST time with friends that I love:

{love that city skyline}

{best of friends}

THEN {also in April}... I was SO kindly invited to paint DC our favorite color {see flowers below} one weekend when T, an old college friend invited me to stay at her uncle's sweet pad {also see below}

{we went for the cherry blossoms, but I fell in love with these pink tulips more. go figure}

We talked and we shopped and we walked around. Then we were chauffeured around for a personal tour of the entire city.
Then we ate. And ate. And ate.
Then we stayed on the 15th floor of *THIS* building where we drank some wine and admired the city lights. The living room had a panoramic view of the city.
Those lights, they captured my heart.

Then, in May... I photographed my first wedding in over a year with my Mother. Haven't seen her work? Check it out, you won't be disappointed. It's always a BLAST spending the day with her while working. This was my first wedding since, well... you know... and guess what? I'm still alive and happy and breathing.

June was Sister's 21st birthday.
Where better to celebrate than the famously trashy Atlantic City?!
We took a group, but the best company was my siblings:

Sister and I danced the night away. What fun!!!

July?

Oh, that's the time that we scored front row seats {at a packed out 4th of July game} at our city's junior baseball league game. Here, we met Gerald, who gave us our front row seats. Why didn't get a picture with Gerald? {Jules, on that stat} We topped this night off when I caught a baseball that the boys threw at us with their number and invited us to play "Call of Duty" back at their hotel room. Talk about klassy.

I enjoyed the evening with these two fabulous ladies, Brit and Jules:

Also in July?
Daddy officially announced his candidacy for the House of Representatives.
This is him. I am SO proud!!!

Somewhere in here, I started collecting Silly Bands. Thanks Julia.
I thought they were dumb. I still do.
But yet the coolest thing I have ever collected.
My silly band collection went from this:

TO THIS:
{you can award me my earned cool points later}

One of my favorite things to do with my ladies is visit one of our local Mexican restaurants for Friday Night Mexican/Margarita Night. {aka FNMMN} Is there a better way to start off a weekend than with Margaritas? Our friend Jorge makes ours special, for his favorite guests of honor.

and no, we didn't drink the whole thing ourselves. there are multiple straws

{holy cow, my hair got long. when did that happen?!}

Speaking of our friend Jorge, the girls and I seem to meet the most wonderful people whilst out painting the town. Below is a picture of Julia, myself and our new friend Ann.

Ann is going to Vegas with us in October. Ann also more or less offered me a job at a Wedding Publication company. Although I don't think she remembers doing so...

Ann was fabulous. Although we don't have a picture, we also met Kay. Kay was adorned with Tiffany's. Hence the beginning of our best-friend-ship.

And lastly, on a more serious note... I coined this phrase to be my new phrase in life for the moment:

This phrase, found on the back of a Dove Chocolate wrapper sits on my keyboard at work. I look at it everyday. It reminds me, every day... to dwell in my past. I have the brightest, most promising future in front of my than I have ever had in my entire life. I will only move forward.

One of these days, I'm going to finish my story of how/why In My Red High Heels began.
I promise.

Until then, you should go thank Sam for the most gorgeous layout that she put together for me. Cuase God only knows... I have NO time to work on my own design stuff. Why is that?

Love you all. Thrilled to be back.
Tell me how your Summer has been, loves.

{and I love you for giving me your eyes, now stay back and watch me shine}

2010-05-24T22:33:00.006-04:00

So I never did a Mother's Day post.

Although I wasn't able to spend the actual day with my mother, I was at least privileged enough to talk with her from 6 hours away.

I can't listen to this song without tearing up thinking about my Mother. It defines my mother to the core.

My mother is my hero. She's held me on the floor as I've bawled my eyes out- emotionally, mentally and physically raw after being hurt deeper than I've ever been hurt before.

She's loves me regardless of the times I've emotionally smacked her in the face. She's loved me after I've rejected her advice. She encouraged me every morning for months when I wanted nothing less than to just stay in bed and sleep away any emotions. She gave me her strength when she had none herself. She's sacrificed. She's love unconditionally. She's put my needs above her own...

And that's just for one of her three children.

I am so proud of my mother. Now, at 47 years old, she's pursuing a dream she's had since we were kids. She's pursuing a completely new career, teaching herself the "ins and outs" of running a business and polishing her photography skills. How many of you can say that your Mom has taught herself a new career at 47? I have never been more proud of her! Think I'm lying? Check her out for yourself.

Thank you Mom, for teaching me the importance of family, faith and unconditional love. I would be lost without you. You are my rock.

Tell me something about your Mom. Because after all, who needs just a day to celebrate your mother?

Trust: no one can fix your trust issues but yourself

2010-05-04T01:51:00.008-04:00

I’m sitting here tonight, writing through tear stained eyes.

I’ve been enjoying a good glass of red wine on my porch tonight, {yummm! Liz, come join me!} intimidated by taking some time alone for myself {but still comforted in the fact that my roommate is just on the other side of that sliding glass door}.

It’s been such a mixed up week. One hour, I was happy as a little cucumber, the next- my heart was heavy and I was desperate to rip it out so I wouldn’t feel anymore.

Then it hit me tonight: how/when did I ever get to where I am in life right now? Scared to death to spend time alone, without the company of any other person- by myself, with my own thoughts. So afraid to trust anyone for fear that whomever I trust with my emotions, they will turn around and betray that trust that is given to so few.

I’ve been thinking a lot the last few days. People hurt people, sometimes unintentionally, sometimes intentionally in an effort to protect themselves. People are people though and sometimes things don’t work out the way you pictured them to. Sometimes people end up hurt. It’s never simple, never easy, never ever a clean break. And it’s very rare that we can fix things that go awry. We end up pushing people away, all as part as effort to restore peace.

That’s where we, as individuals have to pick up- move forward. Offer peace, and if it’s not accepted, move forward. It’s not fun to hurt, it’s not fun to have your anxiety shoot through the roof to the point where you’re literally shaking, afraid to think about the next hour and the potential emotions, pain and hurt that it might bring. It's not near as much fun drinking a glass of wine by yourself, and it's not fun waking up each morning wishing you didn't have to face the day.

But if there is one thing I’ve learned over the past 8 months, you have to move forward. Move forward from hurt and do whatever it takes to not hold onto it. Moving forward will bring peace over time. You gain perspective. Holding onto hurt is only breeding ground for bitterness. And bitterness brings misery only for the person who is bitter- no one else.

As my Aunt would say, this is when you put on your red high heels {and pearls, as a reminder to stay classy} and face the world with a bright face.

When I’m ready to trust someone, allow myself to be vulnerable with someone again, that person will be provided in my life. I'm not saying they will magically fix my trust issues, no one will fix my trust issues and the 10 foot walls that I put up but myself. It's a personal issue that I will work through, and will overcome with time. But I do know that they will have patience with me when I'm PMSing, and they will be patient with me as I work through these personal issues. They won’t toss around my emotions and heart like a hacky-sak. They will protect it and cherish it and respect me with up-most importance, because that's what I deserve. I won’t have to chase after them. Peace will fill my heart. And everything will be ok... it always is...

I’m so happy to be writing again. It’s such an emotional outlet.

And hey, Queen Bee Swain, I’m finally reading “Someday My Prince Will Come, and ohmygosh, I’m obsessed! It's not a typical, "wait for prince charming to come sweep you off your feet in your white horse" kind of book- just read the first chapter on Amazon and I know you'll be just as obsessed as I am! I spent most of my Sunday morning in bed reading!

My next book: I can’t wait to order this online!

Hello, Blog

2010-05-02T21:39:00.004-04:00

I can’t believe it’s been so long since I’ve written; I’ve missed writing my thoughts, sharing my life and have thoroughly enjoyed the comments and emails I have received from you- my lovely

readers asking where I’ve been.

I don’t really have an excuse for where I’ve been. I avoided my blog for a while because I was redesigning it {still not completely done, work with me people!}, redesigned a blog for my mom, and am now currently lining up some design work for my dad, as well as a few people who have asked me to design the stationary for their wedding {SO excited!}. Somewhere in here, I’m also working to launch a new blog soley devoted to the design work that I’ll be offering soon as I get better at learning the ins and outs of web design.

I also moved to another state, started a new job, traveled all up and down the East Coast during the weekends and have been pretty busy occupying my thoughts as to what my next step in life is going to be. Looking back, it’s been a pretty exciting, yet highly intimidating few weeks.

I have so many things that I want to write about, and I think I’m going to- which means you’re {hopefully} going to get 2 post in one night, as long as I can gather my thoughts and make logical sense of them.

I’m sorry I’ve been so MIA. I’ve missed you. And I’m making a commitment to start writing/posting/reading again. So here’s your invitation back to my blog- and a sneak peak to several posts:

The Friend Connection:

I’ve known this girl for HOW LONG?!? And wait... now she’s my BOSS??
Just how thankful I am for this girl...

We had a mother/daughter photo sesh.

Here’s a sneak peak at the 2 women I adore and absolutely could not live without. More from that morning coming soon!

Trust: no one can fix your issues but yourself.

Another chapter in my story.
Looooong over-due.

You can guarantee those topics will be discussed. In the mean time, I stumbled across this. For
the record, I would probably give my Sister’s right arm for a closet like this... (squiggles and hearts, Sister)

Love you all,

le sigh

2010-03-04T02:04:00.004-05:00

Have you ever come to a major crossroad in your life?

A time in your life where you've had to make a big decision and no matter how many logical choices you have in front of you- you're just not sure which path to take? Am I the only one who is so indecisive that the second I mentally confirm my decision, I question whether or not it's the right one, which sends me into more questioning and contemplating?

A thousand different people have given me their two cents {half of them I'd probably just rather them give me 2 pennies} on what they think the best decision is... some opinions have been welcomed, other have not. Go with your gut feeling, think about the future, think about your future, do what makes you happy, pray about it...

I honestly have no instinct either way... am I that numb to emotions these days?

Part of it makes me think that I am just so scared to death to break free of my safety net... my comfort zone... I have my family here, my friends, a job that doesn't pay the greatest- but I still love it... how long am I going to stay stagnant in this safety zone?

How long am I going to completely avoid anything that has to do with commitment?

I am so confused... it's times like this that I wish the Staple's Easy Button really worked.
{{It's been a rough few days...}} encouragement welcomed.

*le sigh*

{blessed}

2010-03-02T15:15:00.004-05:00

I'd like to take some time to tell you about two of the most important girls in my life and how blessed I am to be so close to them.

Pictured is my beautiful sister and mother. The three of us went out on a photoshoot not too long ago and since then, there have been a few times that I've reflected on this morning that we spent together.

Although many times I forget how blessed I am and have been the past 24 years of my life, I am very thankful to be part of such a close family.

My mother- the beautiful lady standing the the front in all her sass {completely rocking out being on the other side of the camera- she's a photographer!} is more or less my rock. She has been there for me at my darkest times- standing there as I cried for hours and asked "why" a thousand times over again. She has awakened with me while I've spent nights sick in the bathroom, holding my hair back and giving me a warm cloth. In a matter of 15 minutes after receiving a phone call, she dropped what she was doing and was on the road headed for VA to be with her girl during a time of devastating uncertainty. She does all this selflessly for her children. In addition to all of this though- and perhaps most importantly- my mom prays for me and her other two children on a daily basis. How many other people can say that? I have never, ever met someone more dedicated in their spiritual life than my mother. I am eternally grateful for her dedication to us, and for never giving up on any of her children {no matter how hard we bite the bullet and push away}.

And my baby sister? Basically my best friend ever. We have stayed up so many nights laughing and giggling in bed that it isn't funny. I know that I can go to her with anything- she'll always tell me what she thinks and no matter what my decision, she still always supports me. We have quite the interesting relationship, and people from the "outside" usually question the way we talk to each other. I love this girl, and though we can get into some pretty nasty arguments- I would do absolutely anything for her. I am so thankful that I am so close to my baby sister.

My brother says hey- Carolina rules. {obvi}

IWF {I Want Friday}

2010-02-24T16:18:00.006-05:00

Today's post is all about a few things that I'm just dying to add to my wardrobe for spring/summer.

I should really get my life together and post more often... I miss it...

On the list for I Want Friday:

BCBGMAXAZRIA drapefront dress found here
perfect for a spring/summer night on the town

I've also been wanting to add some basic nude pumps to my collection.
I think these would do the trick. Hmm?

Christian Louboutin Pigalle Patent Leather Pumps found at saks.com

I've also had my eye on several new bags for spring, including this beautiful blue
marc by marc jacobs bag.
The blue just makes me squeal in excitement for springtime!!

And my favorite part about spring? Adorable new flats that let your feet BREATHE after being cooped up in boots all winter!! I'm loving Tory's sandals...
and would LOVE to have a pair in
every single color!!

And last, but not least... I misplaced my favorite black flats. Since it's such a staple to any girl's wardrobe, and my go-to shoe when I need something comfortable, I think it's about time I replace them.

Tory Burch's black patent reva ballet flat
would do the trick just perfectly.

What are some things that you're eyeing for this spring?
Share with me some links!!
What are you most excited to be able to wear again??

2010-02-16T12:13:00.000-05:00

Meet Erica-
IBloggy friends- how I love you. You all are so supportive and encouraging and for that, I am so thankful.. Any other girls with me when I say that whenever I need a good laugh or pick-me-up, it's a simple hop, skip and click away?
I'd like you to meet one of my IRL friends though. I can't tell you how many nights we have spent laughing about dancing horses or talking about random other problems in our lives, errr...men. She has been my sound mind when I was about to make a ridiculous decision and has been a crying shoulder when I've had difficult nights. She's given me advice that has snapped me back to reality and has kept me in check when I needed to get my life together. She is my fellow coffee lover and Wawa frequenter. She not only supports, but also encourages my shopping obsession. She watches trash television with me till 6 am and laughs with me till we're both dilerous. She's not only smart with a level head on her shoudlers, she's also got the most beautiful green transparent eyes I've ever seen. This girl means the world to me and has quickly become one of my best friends here.
I made the announcement several days ago that I've decided to move back to Virginia to attend grad school, which means... that sadly I'll also have to be leaving this girl. My heart seriously becomes heavy thinking about it. I hate change, and I hate the thought that visiting her will be a 5 hour car ride instead of a thirty minute car ride.
At least it's not a 5 hour plane ride?

As promised...

2010-02-12T03:13:00.005-05:00

... another chapter...

Click here for the first two chapters.

Part III

My lovely ladies (and the few gentlemen that read this), I do apologize for being so MIA lately. I’ve been on several trips- a quick visit to Virginia and another one to New Jersey back to back. They were all a blast, just time to catch up on the real world now.

This month so far has been hard. But I envision myself like a brick wall. Beat me up, crash into me, throw yourself against me- I’ll still stand. I will get through this and the scars that are left behind will only enhance my beauty and character.

Memories flood my mind and take me back. I lose focus and concentration. I don’t mean to be stuck in the past, or to relieve every moment. But believe it or not… this is therapeutic for me. It’s helping my mental state to actually get things out in logical sentences and paragraphs. Have I lost your attention yet?

Here's to another chapter...

The summer of bliss came to an abrupt end when he took an internship job position 6 hours away. Long distance. My stomach twisted into ten thousand knots when I thought about him moving away from me, but I knew I had to be strong for him. I knew that he needed my emotionless support as he chased his dreams. After moving him up to the City of Brotherly Love, he dropped me off at the airport and told me that, “although the next few months were going to be tough… he was doing it for us… and for our future.” He promised me right there that he would be back for me. He wasn’t going to leave me behind. He was committed. And that was that.

I believed him. I held onto his words, it’s what got me through every day. I did everything in my power to support him, even though the distance wounded my very being. I threw myself into school and work to keep my mind off him being so far away, and the weekends that we were able to see one another- I held onto every second we were together.

Aside from the distance being between us, this was also one of the hardest times of my life for other reasons. My brother became horribly ill and it was months of painful sickness before the doctors figured out what was wrong with him. My mom needed my support and I was 6 hours away from her too... the only support I could offer was my listening ear over the telephone. My cousin was killed in a horrific accident. I faced tough times with roommates and best friends. The only thing that got me through was knowing that on December 16, my love would return to me for at least a month. I lived for the day he returned and we could put the long distance phase of our relationship in the past.

He came back and things fell into a routine. I ended up moving out of my house with my best friends and in with someone else. Things settled down after the holidays and we established a “norm” after the new semester began. I got him a job, granted- it wasn’t he most glamorous job… but in this economy, you kind of have to take what you can get. You know what I mean. I worked part time and went to school. We spent our nights off painting the city… errr- doing homework. I was just happy to be with him again, to hug him, to kiss him, to snuggle with him, to cook for him, to fold his t-shirts and tuck them neatly away in his drawer. I was just happy.

Fast forward a few weeks to February 21, 2009. You may remember this day- a year prior, we had made our friendship into an official relationship. Yep- it was our first year anniversary. We had planned to go visit his hometown for the weekend months before the actual weekend. It was a mini vacay, and we had planned to spend the days just relaxing and doing some sight-seeing, as I have a passion for historic buildings. I expected nothing more or nothing less than a quiet, restful weekend with him in one of my favorite places in the world.

That’s just how the weekend was spent, up until Saturday night. We rested, went sight-seeing and toured all the historic buildings; went to a classy dinner at a downtown swanky restaurant. He had told me that my anniversary present was coming after dinner in which he surprised me with a horse drawn carriage ride around town. I still wasn’t expecting anything. After the ride, he pulled me down off the carriage and presented me with a card. Just as I looked up in slight confusion, he was down on one knee... asking the question that every girl waits her entire life to hear. He wanted me to be his wife- and he was giving me a ring to prove it. I lunged at him squealing with glee, hugged him and cried as he spun me around.

I was officially his future Mrs. and the happiest girl in the entire world.

It's not over yet...

2010-02-08T14:29:00.004-05:00

I apologize for being so MIA lately.

Life.
'Nuff said? I'm sure you can relate...

It's a very hard month for me, and I have been doing everything and anything I can do to stay as busy and happy as possible.

This time six months ago, my world as I knew it was completely turned upside down. For the last six months, I have been giving it my all to climb back on my horse...

And three nights ago, was thrown off again. News that I have been fearing to learn for the last six months finally got around to me.

I hate not having control, not being able to fix this lingering situation...
knowing that it will never be fixed, and the only thing I can do is move on.

Big changes in life are getting ready to take place. I landed a job at a school who's benefits include free tuition for grad school. I'm pretty excited about the opportunity, and to be able to take pride in saying, "I never thought I would, but yes- I went back for Grad School. For me. Because I wanted to and because I'm smart enough to."

Cons: I'm moving back to the city where 5 years of sweet memories were made. Back to old friends who will question what happened. Back to the city that I once associated with him, with our home. I'm doing this for me- to conquer this. To be independent again. To become a stronger woman...

Stick with me the next few weeks- it's going to be crazy hectic wrapping things up around here. Saying goodbye to the incredible friends that I've made here. Goodbye to my family and my security here. And hello to a new world of independence...

Another chapter in my story coming tonight or tomorrow.

Thankful Thursdays

2010-01-29T02:25:00.001-05:00

Today, I am thankful for so many things.

I am thank for my dear friend Erica. Who has helped me get through these past months. I'm so thankful for the good head that she has sitting on her pretty little shoulders.

I am thankful for the *man* that opened my car door for me. His reasoning? Because I'm a girl, and that's what guys do for girls out of respect. I am thankful for his patience and his gentleness and his willingness to fight.

I am thankful for my Mother, who has been my rock, my strength through so many tears and bad days since August 8th.

I am thankful for my babies- because every single day, they bring me so much joy and laughter. I am so thankful to be a part of their lives.

I am thankful for my Daddy, who will always have my back.

I am thankful for pink.

pretty pink peonies makes me excited for spring.

2010-01-25T17:11:00.004-05:00

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
Anais Nin

{thank you kHm for quotable monday}

Taken from my girl, Sprinkles.

Possible new adventures in my very, very near future.
I'll keep you updated.

Prayers appreciated.